Welcome to The Invisible Vision Project’s Blog.
I hope you all are doing well!
As for me, to be honest, I haven’t been really well at all; and, I have probably (almost) forgotten what is like to feel well (but I am trying really hard to not think this way). For the past few days, since the mid of last week, to the weekend and up until now, I have been struggling A LOT due to health-related reasons…[this is also the longest time the struggle is persisting].
For this blog, it is very much just to document the moment and to make a reflection on dealing with bad days. And, I also have two quotes to share as well.
I am sure we all know, all of us have bad days, it doesn’t matter for what reasons: sometimes, it may be illness related, or, it may be emotion related; sometimes, it’s about school, and other times, it may be about work, or even just life in general. But, what I have learned about when going through bad days is, (and I think it’s very important): don’t beat yourself up! When you’re struggling or having a bad day, it is important to not dwell on the things you can’t do at the moment (this has been very difficult for me, as I always want or expect myself to be productive). But, from what I’ve learned, it is important to take care of yourself first, try to stay as positive as possible, and stay or talk with helpful and positive people around you; it will and may not necessarily make the struggle or pain to go away, but, it will really help a lot, especially emotionally.
So, it is safe to say, for the past few days, I practically didn’t do very much, other than hospital and clinic visits, and spending the rest of the hours being in bed. Of course, I was becoming very frustrated at times, I wanted to get over this pain and struggle as quickly as possible, but, my body just wasn’t willing to cooperate with me this time. This is when I realize, maybe it’s my ‘fault’ for pushing too hard, and went way over my limit. I know in the past, when I went through the same struggle (this is not the first time, in case you’re wondering, and definitely not the last), I have a tendency to order my body in such an attitude like “just get over this already!” But, for this time, it didn’t listen to my ‘order,’ which in turn, it’s a sign that I am getting weaker to combat with the struggle now (I admit, I have noticed this, but not necessarily willing to accept it until now).
To describe how I have been feeling for the past few days, I have two quotes that I think best summarizes and describes my feelings. In this first quote, in which I have been wanting to say this for ages, and it says: “I can’t tell if it’s killing me or it’s making me stronger.” I think this quote is very on point of my experience with pain. During the moments when I was in so much pain, I began to question countless times in my head: what is all of this for? Why am I in so much pain? And why does pain has to be the testimony for my strength? In some instances, I somehow did wish that the pain should just kill me, so that I don’t have to endure it any longer. But, other thoughts were also on my mind, thoughts of joyous and happiness in life, and of moments spent with positive people in my life, and how thankful I am for them. It is in those moments that I tried to hold on to and not letting go, or giving up.
And, in the second quote it reads: “You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.” I think this quote is very right; I think, if I don’t fight through the difficult days, the days with pain and struggle, I won’t be really and truly living fully in the days when I’m free of struggle and of pain. Struggles are tough, but because of it, I am able to grow stronger as a person, so I don’t get defeated easily in life, because, at least, I know the difference between a difficult and an easy life. I will cherish the good life, but continue to try and stay strong during hard times. And, I truly believe, even though it may take longer, but, things will eventually get better, and I will get better. So, just as the title of this blog says, Difficult Days are a Reminder that Good Days are Coming!
So, this concludes today’s blog. Thank you for reading to the end.
By: The Invisible Vision Project